remind me again?

someone will always be smarter.

their house will be bigger.

they will drive a better car.

their children will do better in school.

their partners will fix more things around the house.

so let it go and love you and your circumstances.

think about it.

the prettiest woman in the world can have hell in her heart.

the most highly favoured woman on your job may be unable to have children.

the richest woman you know might be heartbreakingly lonely.

love who you are right now.

tell yourself, "i am too blessed to be stressed."

be blessed.

february 2006

another day

another challenge!

*walks to the bathroom*

depressed as a dog so for a moment i thought of getting some motivation off the internet.

oh, the idea alone makes me want to lie in fetus position on the floor of my room, sobbing.

it's not that i don't have friends which i can bother with my lively stories of all things fucked up in my life.

i know loads of people and a few even love me and care about me.

in situations like this i'm just very good in feeling utterly and completely alone and lost.

it drives them

CRAZY

it drives me

NUTS

i have the feeling that every conversation i start goes something

like this:

in the meanwhile they talk to this:

so i go through the day trying to cheer myself the fuck up.

(and fail miserably)

that's why i'm now going to kick my own sorry ass into the bathroom which i haven't seen since the day before yesterday.

i can't be bothered but it can't be bad to be clean....

*update*

my hubby, the one i am arguing with all the time, just came home from his lunch break to bring me food. he knows i feel miserable and food is not on my to do list.

he loves me.

and i'm glad he's showing it.

because

i love him

and 

i love food

brick wall 

head BANG 

put a plaster on it

do it again

about that

how i feel today?

morality is the herd-instinct in the individual

- nietzsche -

jimmy cliff
many rivers to cross


this needs to be played
at my funeral

william e. whitmore

hell or high water


this man's voice
sends shivers down my spine
nice lyrics too

amen to that

the abyssinians

declaration of rights

brenton wood

gimme a little sign

i adore this song which is smooth yet passionate

purrrr

NOW GIVE ME A GODDAMN SIGN

having a less than fab hair day

makes me wish i had curls

you always want what you can't have

right?

i should listen to willie

and paint my shit in pink and blue

oh god in bed

means 

business time

yeah

that could be me

just to see what happens

what time is it?

^
it's a link that shows you the time
hmmm
i now pretty much destroyed the element
of surprise

i hate to advocate drugs, alcohol, violence or insanity to anyone,

but they’ve always worked for me.

- h s thompson

charles montgomery

i don't think

well  charles, if i'm honest i think that i probably will do that again. and again. and again.

socializing is as exhausting as giving blood

people assume that we loners are misanthropes just sitting thinking,

'oh, people are such a bunch of assholes' 

but it's really not like that.

we just have a smaller tolerance for what it takes to be with others.

it means having to perform.

i get so tired of communicating

- anneli rufus -

les baxter

voodoo dream

this is ultimate sunday music

photo

photo

tasting the Dutch word 

rhododendron

bella the kid hates it
i wonder if i'm that lucky