Exciting times.

Unreal too.

It seems so okay, this relationship at the moment.

We seem like two normal people loving each other a lot.

But there's a reason for being at this crossroad.

A good reason too.

We were all very unhappy living together.

And I need to tell myself that this is just a way of trying to find some peace of mind.

Trying to make it better for ourselves.

And despite of what people tell me, I don't want to see this as the last resort before breaking up.

I want to make this work.

Of course I'm not sure if this is the right decision.

Comfuckingpletely unsure that is. 

The price I have to pay seems so high. 

Too high.

It seems unfair for all the trouble and effort I put in.

It is what it is though.

And I just can't make it better anymore.