I did it.

I called the landlord and now I've got a new place to live.

I'm moving out on December 1.

That means we've lived together for exactly three years.

That's fucking short but it was all that was there and we pushed it to the limit (several times).

Now let's see how this works out,to have a relationship with no prospect of a joint future together.

It does make me wonder, is building a future together not the most important thing in a serious long-term relationship?

Build a future to feel secure and safe?

At least, that's what I've always thought a relationship should  be about. 

At the moment it feels like it was a waste of time, money and effort. 

I know that it's only a feeling and I know feelings can't be trusted. 

I do hope this feeling won't last and that I find the strength to start this new episode in my life more positive.